I Don’t Know if I am Doing This Right

I wish it were more convenient to get my thoughts out. I can’t type fast enough on anything to keep up with my head. It makes me miss putting things down, which leaves some connecting tidbits out, making everything seem janky and a little disorganized.

It’s telling me “janky” isn’t a word. Without looking it up, I’m saying it is.

Yeah, so I feel a bit better today. Now that I am back on a schedule, that I have a little more structure. Running again in the mornings despite the teen heat damage. Go through my routines at work, cleaning up, getting organized. And, I had a little work to do that I was looking forward to. But, I’m not one hundred percent sure why.

All I had to do was add a new banner to the homepage and put in a new miniature header above our normal header…this is all for the place I work at’s site. The colors of both of these together made the site a little more dark and precise. It was supposed to look really nice.

It does. But, it didn’t take me long enough. It was easy to do and, really, wasn’t that much of an impact. I was disappointed I didn’t have to work on it more. Even making it responsive was easy. I mean, for some reason, I looked forward to it for a few days. It turned out to be nothing, really.

Maybe I just wanted something productive to do. But, I don’t know. I get work trickling in. Mostly little updates. Some page development. I really shouldn’t be that starved for completing something. I don’t know.

Regardless, the day was fine. Working out again, working on budgeting, eating correctly. This, currently, is what makes up a decent day.

AND, I got myself to write some. Even if it was just this, it was something.

Maybe that is what I am negotiating with. Just small, imperfect steps of progress. Nothing amazing. Nothing unheard of. But, all going in a positive direction.

This time of the year, I guess I just grab on to what I can to stay above the depression line. I like that I am actually doing it. Maybe I just need bigger goals.