A Sticker for Effort

As required, a New Year post. I don’t know if it is the pressure from that time of year or it just lines up nicely, but I do tend to make changes (or at least try to) around this time. It might just be the dismal temperature and weather bringing me down, putting me near the opposite of a boiling point to where I feel like I need to make changes. Or, more likely, it is all arbitrary.

So, I either need to look for something else to do with my time or put more effort into the things that I am doing. The danger with continuing on with more gusto is that I start to care again and can be upset when things don’t pan out. Then, I blame myself for caring and get all whiny and depressed again. But, it is the less energy expense of the two. Plus, I don’t want to be seen as a failure at what I’m doing by leaving when I’m down. I’d rather be seen in a higher regard, especially by myself.

Yeah, that’s what I am going to do. I’m going to take what I am already doing and focus on it. I might add some little things here and there, but I don’t think it is time yet to upset everything and start over somewhere new. With anything. Just, redouble the effort.

It sounds like such a simple plan, but it actually is the end of a lot of thought and planning. A lot of emotional leverage was weighed, and thought of what the outcome will be. Seriously. I’ve probably been coming to this over the past few months. But, I am here now, so let’s see where it goes.

That includes this, by the way. I had to force myself just to write this…as intriguing as it is. But, it is the effort. And, I’m going to look up more of my old stuff to try and put things into perspective. It seems like fun. I know it is going to bring me down quite a bit, too. But, doing a timeline-like en devour of my life through posts, pictures, and what I can remember might shed more light on things that I want to change, or at least what I don’t want to stay the same or accidentally slip back into.

Enough of that for now. I’ve got to get some old food out of me, put some new stuff in, and get some work done. I mean, after a little bit of morning entertainment to get me warmed up.